Insights From My Diary

December 31, 2013

Location: In the sky

Once again, Brady and I are flying.

It seems that we spend more time on planes than on ground, but that’s not necessarily true.

It was a good run- the past month; Being able to surprise our families and come home for Christmas. Two-weeks in Ohio and two-weeks in Florida. We are now on our way back to Guatemala, where we have lived for the past three months. It’s pretty unusual, our life, but it’s great.

With teary eyes and a heavy heart, we said ‘see-you-later’ to my parents and little sister at the Tampa airport just a little while ago. It’s hard because we never know when the next time is that we will be back; it’s always just hoping that it sooner rather than later. And here we are, on New Years Eve, turning a page and starting a new chapter: back to Guatemala, but beginning a new season.

It’s very hard to say good-bye to our families, but we have to do what God asks us to do and we have to trust Him, no matter what.

To the ends of the earth, I will follow. Through every hardship and every storm, I will trust you, Lord. You are my strength; you are my source of joy.

Let my life not be ordinary, but lead me into your will, and guide me all the way through.

I am yours and you are mine. I love you.

Hola From An Indigenous Mayan Village

Happy Day, Friend!

Brady and I are sitting in a little cafe here in San Juan, Guatemala. We have been staying out in the middle of nowhere for almost a month at an old retreat center type place.

We are fortunate enough to be around one of the most beautiful lakes in the world: Lago De Atitlan.

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There are three volcanoes located around the lake, creating an even more breathtaking view at any time of the day. It’s an hour boat ride to the other side, and all travel from village to village requires way of boat. It is here in these villages that the people dress in traditional Mayan attire and speak the ancient indigenous Mayan language, Tz’utujil. 

What a beautiful life they get to live.

Identity

I’ve been thinking about identity lately.

Particularly examining what I’m putting my identity in.

Is it the clothes I wear? The accomplishments I’ve made? The people I know or how many people know me?

Let’s get real: sometimes we get so wrapped up in how many ‘likes’ we get or how many followers we have.

 It’s completely ridiculous.

I even find myself struggling with what people think about my age, or the fact that I haven’t finished college yet.

Basically, my whole identity is defined by what other people think-

 or what I believe they think.

This led me deeper into thought about my who I am.

The first thing that came to my mind is obviously my name.

Kimberly Ann. That’s who I am, right?

But what does that mean?

Something I read once, that I truly believe is that:

“names can be prophetic declarations that define a persons’ identity.“

So, our names can certainly influence the essence of who we are.

I looked my name up and I found multiple versions of what it meant, but I took hold of the most recent one I found.

Kimberly : She has great strength

Ann: Full of grace

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Have you ever taken the time to find out what your name means?

You might be surprised to see how closely it resembles your personality.

Another thing to think about is that our identity really shouldn’t be who we are, but who He is in us.

I challenge you to make a list of the things you put your identity in and be open.

I was kind of embarrassed by the things I came up with, but it was true and now that I know, I can be careful to not let those things define me.

A Psalm of Reflection

Written deep in the wilderness while meditating on the humble shore of a vast river in the mountains of Georgia.

I sat silently for hours and observed the beautiful river and reflected on the Lord. 

Your depths are unending,

Your streams are so tender and gentle,

Your water is pure and gives life to those who drink it.

The consistency of your drifting waters bring peace to those who take the time to listen.

The beauty of your channels invite joy and satisfaction to those who sit on the shore and gaze.

To the left and to the right, one looks but cannot see a beginning or an end.

In you, the filthy are made clean.

In your motions of grace, you drift away that which was washed off.

Those who seek you, find you in the wilderness.

Though parts of your stream may be found out in the open,

The full extent of who you are is found where few have dared to venture.

Only those who stay and camp can truly see what it is that you do.

They surely rely on your water for life, not simply instant satisfaction to thirst.

Faith is not knowing what the future holds, but knowing who holds your future.

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Seeing the possible in the impossible

You may not be able to hold faith or wrap it up in a box, but it is real and powerful and can conquer kingdoms, administer justice, gain what was promised. It can shut the mouth of lions, quench the fury of flames, escape the edge of the sword, raise the long dead, end torture, and release the imprisoned. (Hebrews 11:33-38)

There are a lot of times in our lives when we are told, “No, that’s impossible.”

“Your dreams are impossible”

“Your wants are impossible”

“Your victory is impossible

In the physical realm, even to us things can seem utterly impossible. However, if you can look past the difficulty, and toward the God of the impossible, miracles can happen.

Our God is the same today as He was in the days of Joshua.  He is unchanging and still actively performs miracles.

In the story of the promised land, the Israelites  had been wandering in the desert for forty years after escaping from slavery in Egypt. When it was time to claim the place that the Lord had called them to, they sent twelve men to scout out the land. However, out of the twelve, only two (Joshua and Caleb) saw beyond the giants that resided there.

In our lives, we have giants standing in the way of our promises. Yet, God has foreseen those giants and  has called us anyway.

“Instead of looking just at what was in front of them, they kept their eyes on God, who was higher and bigger (God is always higher and bigger.) Rather than being distracted by all that looked impossible, they saw all that was possible.” (Chistine Caine, Undaunted)

Not if, but when we face the difficulty that tries to keep us back from our destinies, we must choose to have faith in God and see the possible in the impossible.

In my own life, I have been walking through the desert land in a place of loneliness and the in-between. I have been delivered from the slavery of fear and brokenness and have been waiting to take hold of the destiny that God has called me to.  He wants to lift me up to a life of fullness. I believe that I am on the path to really soaring with my calling, but there have been many giants that have stood square in the middle of the path and put on their meanest faces. I have been tempted to fear, but instead have clung to faith. Faith showed me that these giants are powerless! They may appear big and bad, but they are nothing more than overgrown babies.

God always makes a way where there is no way.

Remember , the first step to faith is obedience.

Faith is required when you’re in doubt , when you’re in want, when things are difficult and unclear . “Faith”, the Bible tells us, is, “confidence in what we hope for and the assurance about what we do not see. ”  (Hebrews 11:1)

The path to the possible requires a first step. and a second. and a third. God will take you one step at a time over the mountains of difficulty and through the sand-storms of life. When you can hardly breath and have no idea where the next step will take you- God hold’s your hand and says “trust me.” He sees your life from beginning to end and knows exactly what lies beyond the giants who are blocking your line of vision.

And remember, Prayer is necessary at all times, not just as a last hope.

God answers prayers and through Him all things are possible. (Matthew 19:26)

“Prayer allows you to knock difficulty off it’s feet, even when you’re on your knees. It’s a power like no other, a great first option-not just a last resort. When you move into the future undaunted, miracles begin to happen. The impossible becomes possible.” (Christine Caine, Undaunted)

It’s time to face the giants that are trying to scare you out of your destiny.

I dare you, with faith and prayer, to take the luscious land that God has promised you.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“We are not slaves; we are free. And we have been freed for a purpose: to share what you’ve been given.” – Christine Caine

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